Once again - on a journey to "Explore. Dream. Discover."!

So, it's been almost a year since my last post and what a year it's been! I've flirted with love, I've wallowed in heartbreak, I've done things I never thought I would do and that I now have to choose to learn from rather than regret. I've met beautiful people I'm incredibly thankful to have in my life and realized that it's okay to exclude some people from my life - and that that isn't selfishness or unloving but simply allowing self-loving, self-preservation. I've lost some old dreams, and started to pursue new ones and, as expected, I've learned more about myself and the way I see the world. For me this past year has been very different then the 6 before it in that I have gone to no countries or even regions that I've never been to before. My nomadicism has been quelled . . . or so it seemed. Thanks to the pressures and arm twisting of my best friend, it's about to blossom again. And surprisingly, knowing I'm about to embark on another adventure, about to see and do things I've never seen and done before, meet people who will challenge me and expand my horizons, rather then having that overwhelming yearning to be off that I usually experience, a part of me almost wants to stay home.

And perhaps that's exactly the reason why I should go. It is within me to yearn for newness, and although I learned years ago that the same type of growth and expansion that seems to inevitably occur when I'm voyaging can also occur when I stay just where I am - I also know travels tend to force it upon me. At home, often, it is me who has to seek it out and take the time to see the lessons in the life that surrounds me. I'm an expert in repression, an expert in pushing back pain, or confusion, or truths that seem too scary - but my expertise only lasts for so long and eventually a pivotal moment comes when certain things can not be repressed anymore. Very recently I've encountered certain things that I can no longer push away and these things will inevitably change my life and the way I self-identify: potentially forever.

My new journey's will take me back to Asia - but in a new way and to new experiences. And yes, I think the timing is probably just right - away from so much and so many I've known during my weeks, months, and years of repression - I will re-discover myself as I re-discover and re-interpret a world I've always lived in but perhaps never known simply for what it is.